So it's been about two weeks since I've moved home and I feel like a complete bum. I have no job so basically all I do is, homework (occasionally for my online class), read the Hunger Games, and go to the gym. It sounds nice... and it was for the first few days, but now I feel kind of useless. I noticed this past semester at school that the days where I had a lot to do were the days that I was the most productive. When I had a free day I would plan on getting caught up with everything but I would always end up doing something like watching youtube all day long instead. So now that I really have very few responsibilities, my good intentions of doing productive things with my days always end up in failure. So I'm a bum who gets nothing done. I really need a job, and not just for the money or so that I'm more productive, I need a job so that I get that feeling of accomplishment and that boost to your self-esteem that comes with a job (even the crappy ones), I always take that feeling for granted. I hate when everyone comes home for the day and asks me what I've done and then I have to say that horrible word... "nothing." It's really not good on your self esteem. So yeah, that's my life lately and that's why I haven't posted anything for a while. But on a happier note! I do finally feel good about the future because I finally have a plan and some solid goals that I feel are possible to accomplish. I would share them with you now but I'm kind of a superstitious person sometimes and I feel like when you say out loud (or in this case write) what you really want you will get jinxed or something... it's like making a wish on a star, or when you blow out your birthday candles... you can't tell anyone what you wished. And at this point, my plans are more like wishes than anything else so I'm keeping them to myself for now.
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